Internal Volcanoes

Bit of a crappy night last night. Up for 3 hours from 3:00 - 6:00 but then back to sleep again. Woke up this morning: no symptoms, no changes, nothing. Don't feel any different to normal except a bit bloated (due to water drinking) and flabby due to no badminton or the gym for a month...

Wish I would feel something.

My embies are 8 days old today, and it's 3 days since embryo transfer.

OF COURSE I'M NOT GOING TO HAVE ANY SYMPTOMS YET!!!

I went to do a bit of shopping and put all my items into one big bag and carried it to the car and then into the house. It was heavy. But I bought some prune juice (100% not from concentrate) and am having my first glass now. Delicious - and packed full of antioxidant - even more so than blueberries apparently.

While I was there, in the shop, I picked up a a ClearBlue digit pregnancy test and stood fingering it. I wondered whether to buy it or not, but then became too emotional and nearly started crying. Put the test down and stared at the condoms for a while not realising what I was looking at.

Seven days until my pregnancy test.

I have been pregnant 4 times and always get huge sore swollen boobs. Right now my boobs are no different from normal. Not swollen, not especially sore. But... all in good time...

[a little later]

OMG the prune juice seriously worked! It was frightening..

There was a complete explosion preceeded by quite a bit of discomfort. I didn't mean for that to happen: I wasn't that badly in need... Jeez. Wow. That was scary. Without wishing to seem a complete idiot, but could that have done something bad to the embies? I mean (TMI coming up) it was painful and just exploded out into the toilet like when you have a serious stomach upset. Uncontrollable. I don't think I'll bother with prune juice again.