Not knowing

I really want to do a test tomorrow morning (it would be 3 days early - like last time).

It's HELL not knowing. I mean, I know the result is already decided inside me. Whether I am pregnant, or am not is already decided. It's just that I don't know what that result is. I want to know so badly!!!

But if I tested, say, tomorrow morning, I'd have to test the next three mornings with the same kind of stick to make sure that I still am pregnant and the line is getting darker. I've exerpeinced the utter disappointment of a chemical pregnancy, so obviously cannot be sure until I know my HCG numbers are doubling every three days or so, and I can only find this out through regular blood tests. But my clinic does blood tests every other day for about two weeks after you get your result so if I'm pregnant I'll know if the numbers are rising.