Very special person

I feel like a very special person. I have my embryos inside.

I am being very philosophical and have taken the attitude that there is nothing I can do to influence implantation. Worrying, praying and hoping won't make the blindest bit of difference. It will either happen or it won't happen. We just have to wait, and in the meantime we should have friends round, eat good food, read good books, watch great films, hug our families, and just wait calmly and see. We just have to carry on with life. The outcome is in the hands of fate and if I am pregnant now, or if I'm not, it is already decided inside me, and worring cannot help.

It's just so difficult to keep the dreams away. Thoughts keep sneaking in such as, "oooh, what if I am pregnant. I will be pregnant. We might have a baby. OOoh," And then I rush to crush those thoughts with, "don't think like that. It may not happen. It might be a BFN - so don't get your hopes up too much." And the internal arguments continue.

At lunch time I enjoyed a small glass of organic red wine. :-)